It's been a while since I blogged about something more personal other than stories. It's March, 7 days left till SPM results. I am, naturally, dreading the moment of truth. So I am passing my days, with no expectations. High, nor low. It isn't exactly the right thing to do, most people say, to not expect anything. But I guess it's better expecting nothing than being surprised by what there is to come later on. I just, yeah. 

Also, there's nothing better than to stage a one-man show, or in this case, one-lady show about all the drama in life. Hypothetically speaking though, I have none, given the current circumstances of being unemployed and un-busy. I hate not having anything to do other than sit at home and rot and do house chores. From that, which, I am apparently mentally-drained. And physically drained as well. Jogged for a few days in the past week, but due to the absence of a driver's license and dependable transport I have yet to continue my dream of achieving toned legs and wicked abs. I've been in a rut lately, and I just feel like I have to clear my mind off some things. I mean, it's difficult to push aside the "should be-s" in order to give way to the "probably-must-be-s". Probably because, human nature just tends to veer more toward the "dark" side and risks in life. Not all risks though. I wouldn't risk my life just because there's some kind of money bag in a sea full of killer sharks whatamitalkingabout but anyways. I learnt new words today from the Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionary. Yes, I read the dictionary religiously (no I don't.) Prepping for this Friday's Spell-It-Right at my former high school, lending a helping hand to my dearest teacher, Madam Grace. So I have been researching and leafing through online and off line resources, which I am proud to say kept my mind off certain things. Also, it helped enrich my vocabulary. It's good to be partly busy.

#MH370 is trending on Twitter and other media portals too. Just in case you didn't know, flight MH370 disappeared off the radar last Saturday. It's been four days to date, yet there's still no report concerning the discovery of the aircraft. It's interesting to see the battle between believers and non-believers in whatever information that's being thrown at them now. But I shall not elaborate more. Hush hush. 

Sometimes, certain twists of events take you by surprise. Most of the time, the surprises are the ones you never saw coming. Like I said, easier to not expect than to expect. Saves a lot of disappointment. Decreases the momentum of shock and anger and all the shiz in this world. But, one must try to comprehend and understand. I learnt that your thoughts depend on your spirit. Good, bad, optimistic, pessimistic. Dark. light, shallow, broad. And that it says a lot of things that you can never read about yourself.  Insecurity, dreams, expectation. It rains down like bullets through an inferno, no,  not a pretty sight. Smile, even when you're frowning on the inside. Then you wonder, is it fair? Nothing's fair in life. I am hating the "people pleaser" side I have. But it's there, engraved in my veins. It's unfair. 

So, very unfair.