Hello! :)

Well I thought I'd start off with a burst of excitement for a change and indeed, I am somewhat excited to write up this post -something I haven't been feeling in a while or so. No stories though, just one of my daily encounters.

So yesterday...

I was having a really boring day because I had literally nothing to do at home but chores. That's okay though, because for some reason yesterday I felt impulsed to do an extra chore which sadly did not include folding clothes because I wasn't impulsed to do that, yet. So anyways, Presley decided to come over to the house yesterday. I thought he was pulling a joke but he actually came and I was saved from extra hours of overwhelming boredom. I was in the middle of pulling a quick lunch together for myself because I realised there was nothing in the fridge and (thankfully) Pres had eaten prior to coming over so that was settled. I rummaged the fridge and found tofu, chillies and cilantro - which was actually not so bad because I thought the fridge was a hopeless case - and prepped up what I hoped to be a legit meal (+ rice). So I did (plate up a legit meal) and although it wasn't fancy but I just felt like describing it for my possible future scenario of having similar ingredients left in the fridge on a day of starvation. 

We chatted for a bit and got bored of being at home and went to 1Borneo for Starbucks. 

So, remember that #positivity thing I mentioned in the previous post? Well I had a pretty good day going and I thought of making my family's night too by making dinner. Bought some groceries at Giant (one of the times I was happy at myself for not finishing my salary) and a tub of King's Grand Tin Roof Brownie ice cream. Oh and we popped over to H&M and Cotton On for a bit and I got myself one of those bags Cotton On merchandises for charity. 

Dinner was a lovely affair and it was one of my favourite family dinners in ages. I've been away for almost a year on and off, and for that whole year I never got to go grocery shopping and cook a complete meal for dinner all by myself because I never really had the chance. It really meant a lot to me because it was what I always wanted to do- repay my parents bit by bit with little acts of selflessness and love. I am thankful that I decided to get a part-time job and thus being able to do this, bit by bit, of what I have always wanted to do for my family. We're not quite a family of free hugs and kisses which as a kid I often wondered why (because That's So Raven's family was lovely) but as I grew up, I learnt to be more thankful for the little things and ways my parents do to show love. In their own ways. My dad rarely complains about having to do anything that he's asked/begged/persuaded/coaxed/tantrumed at to do and I find that amazing, especially when we were such difficult brats. Although my mom sometimes seems like a military woman, she's the most beautiful person ever inside and out. They both taught me the values of being a human being and although I'm not quite there yet, I have them to thank for making me who I am now. I hear friends complaining all the time about how their parents are like this and that and I realise that all I had to complain about was the lack of freedom to do what I wanted. And that was it. I am the luckiest daughter alive to have such selfless parents who put us above anything that happened and for that I am eternally thankful. I still get frustrated at some things sometimes, but I hope I'll get over it soon enough.
(Early P/S I got a hug from mummy after dinner and that definitely made me the happiest I've ever been!)

I am a pretty shitty daughter especially when it comes to doing my parents proud in my studies but one day I'll achieve that. It's funny how a a few years ago I found it difficult to come to terms with myself that I had parents who took my welfare and upbringing seriously and did everything to make sure we became at least a decent human being. But then again, certain events change someone. And it changed me tremendously, especially in trying to reason with some very difficult things which also helps me in keeping up a (hopefully) high level of tolerance and relevant communication skills in different sorts of situations and most of all, accepting the blessing I have. In this case, my parents. I'm also currently trying to get myself involved at something in church, but that's another story. I didn't expect to write about this hugely emotional part (at least to me) about my parents but I'm glad I found it in me to appreciate them in the open. I feel like I could use some salvation from being rebellious and stubborn sometimes. That being said, it leads a close to my array of thoughts for tonight, starting with how we should always remember how hard it was for our parents to raise our bratty asses and appreciate how amazing it is that some find the strength to not kick us out of their lives.

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